Dirty Diana

I'll be the freak you can taunt
And I don't care what you say
I want to go too far

more alcohol insanity. something inside me that breaks out and destroys me.

destroyer of comforting illusions

Only worth in unattainability. Reality alone is reliable, dreams expectations and hopes serve to define a man only as deceptive dreams, abortive hopes, expectations unfulfilled.

we ourselves decide our being. you are free, therefore, choose. there is no reality except in action. man is nothing else but the sum of his action.

deceptive dreams - why do I live inside deceptive dreams, all my life, never back to reality. never see things as they are, but as I wish them to be. fooling myself into believing dream IS reality. and thus getting crushed when waking up from the dream and realizing it was all make-believe. even if I see through this, it seems I don't want to change it. uncapable of bringing myself to face reality. it's out there, I just don't want anything to do with it.

Take my badge, but my heart remains

I wanted love, I needed love
Most of all, most of all..
Someone said "True Love" was dead
but I'm bound to fall
Bound to fall for you
Oh what can I do?

Take my badge, but my heart remains
Loving you, baby child..
Tighten up on your reigns, you're running wild.
Running wild, it's true.

Sick for days, so many ways
I'm aching now, I'm aching now
It's times like these, I need relief.
Please show me how, oh show me how..
To get right ..
Yeah it's all the side

When I was young, and moving fast,
Nothing slowed me down, ooh slowed me down.
Now I let the others pass
I've come around, oh come around.
Cause I found.

Living just to keep going
Going just to be sane.
All the while I know
It's such a shame
I don't need to get steady
I know just what to feel.
Telling me to be ready, my dear