Fun

I've got nothing left inside of my chest, but it's all alright. everyone I love is gonna leave me.

I wouldn't

how do you tell someone that you cry every day because of them, and in the night you drink to numb the pain of missing them. how do you tell someone that your heart is breaking in tiny million pieces because of them. how do you tell someone that the reason you can't talk to them is that you are too scared to find out that they don't care about you at all anymore, because the pain of knowing that would be too much and would eventually send you over the edge. It would be a beautiful love letter, and a terrible one. who wants to hear they are the cause of so much pain?

Will I ever talk to you again?

"The last thing I wanted to do was hurt you." "Well it's a little late for that" Honestly. If you don't want to hurt people, don't make them emotionally invested in you. Tell them from the start, this is not a good idea. There. Done.

Hart of Dixie

Why do people keep saying "you're so much better than that", "you deserve better", "you can do better", "he didn't appreciate you for how great you are" and all them other platitudes. It is not true. And just makes people keep looking when there isn't anything to look for.

On Today's News

It doesn't hurt me. Do you want to feel how it feels? Do you want to know that it doesn't hurt me? Do you want to hear about the deal that I'm making? No more thunder in my heart. I can't do this anymore. I can't love recklessly anymore. I need to love myself. And only myself. It does hurt me. It hurts knowing what I did wrong, from the start, how I ruined it. And that just because I ruined it, you never had the same feelings I did, even though I thought you did. It was never real. This has to stop. Now.

Back to Wreck

This place has a lot of history and even if no one is listening, it's the place I used to turn to with my problems. Now I keep them in a book. But sometimes it's good to read all this and remember. That I haven't changed at all. That I'm a perpetually sad person. Breaking again. Feels like it's never going to end.