A penny for your thoughts but a dollar for your insides

Maybe I'm late, but I don't care. Been listening to infinity on high (fall out boy) for weeks and weeks now but never came as far as praising them here. So here I am. I love them.

Fall Out Boy - "Hum Hallelujah"

It's all a game of this or that, now versus then
better off against worse for wear
And you’re someone who knows someone who knows someone I once knew
And I just want to be a part of this

The road outside my house is paved with good intentions
Hired a construction crew, 'cause it's hell on the engine
You are the dreamer and we are the dream.
I could write it better than you ever felt it.

This is like the best line ever, I thought katie came up with it all by herself. :)
Sometimes we take chances, sometimes we take pills.

And everyone with eyes, here's something for you: Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes... nejdå inte alls riktat till någon alls.

Bourreau des coeurs

Après la pluie le beau temps. Atleast you could always hope. :)

Some useful french stuff (yes jag har läsprov imorron, oh joy):

Qui se ressemble s'assemble. (Lika barn leka bäst)
Mieux vaut tard que jamais. (Bättre sent än aldrig)
Avoir le coeur sur la main. (to have one's heart in one's hand, to be kindhearted)
Être un bourreau des coeurs. (to be an executioner of hearts, a casanova/ladykiller)

Christmas shopping, essay writing, girls' secrets

hullo.
umm.
don't feel like writing right now. all my inspiration went into comparing medea and ett dockhem. i've been watching the lord of the rings, the extended versions and some extra material, it's as a comfort for me, finding my way back to something i can understand, something i love, some core deep inside me. the undying lands, the elves, their wisdom, the heart of darkness in men. what are we holding on to sam? that there is something good in this world, and it's worth fighting for. the whole mythology surrounding tolkien's works, it's something so true and pure, so beautiful, enchanting and mysterious, nothing else can ever even get close to what he achieved. i wanna reread the books.
ok. so i've said i don't like christmas. is that just to be alternative? cause christmas can be kinda nice. sometimes. but i think i like the time before christmas better still. förväntningar, levande ljus, mörkt ute, snön (hoppas den kommer lagom till jul i år), lussebak, pepparkakor, lukten av glögg och juliga kryddor, mys. and i love buying presents for my friends :) usually i compose something really personal, which is so much fun. knowing someone that well is reassuring. safety. i hate however trying to come up with something to give my parents and grandparents, cause all i come up with is boring stuff like candy. any ideas?

ah well. people talk so much shit. things you're not supposed to know of always slips through one way or another.

Secret #7.
Smiles and make up cover up so much these days.

Secret #8.
It's hard not to have anyone want to hold us when we feel alone

Secret #9.
We spend too much time thinking about things that will never happen and dressing up for the boy that will never care.

Secret # 11.
Its hard being with someone knowing that it wont last forever, but not able to end things cause u dont want to end up hurting him, or end up alone and hurting yourself.

Secret #13.. we change our minds fequently because we are always considering the could be's, wont's and what if's.

I made my mistakes yeah, so have we all

Utan min Kudde hade jag fallit jättehårt. I vintermörkret finns det inget bättre än musik och msn med Kudde för att komma på rätt spår igen. :) Tack för att du finns.
Mitt i alltihopa skickades denna låt. Och jag fick upp ögonen för Simple Plan igen. Jag vet, det är löjlig high school punk rock, romantiskt och så, men jag tycker ändå de är söta. It goes straight to the heart.

"Untitled"

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Now it's up to fate. I leave life to fate for a while cuz I simply can't be bothered with it right now. No wishes, no directions this way or that. i just let go of it all, wherever it goes, fine. cuz it never went where i wanted it too anyways, almost always the other direction yeah. mhm, too tired. exhausted? kinda. something interesting going on? no, just allmänt filosoferande om livets enigma, ambiguities och motsägelser, the wheel of time, och våran egen destruction. cheers.

Samskaric pathways

We are not islands. We are oceans. And some waters are more treacherous than others.
How can we know what we are doing before we are doing it? Aaah.

I like samurai movies, and I love anime. It makes a good combo. :)
And I haven't slept much, and next weekend wont be much sleepy time either.

And dancing is so fun, love you girls. <3

Writing World Lit. It's difficult to get every single detail stuffed into the shit, but I'm doing fine I hope.

"Close your eyes and pretend it's a bad dream, that's how I get by." - Jack Sparrow is giving advice when some people are shocked he's back from the dead.

Regina Spektor - Fidelity

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

Yogajournal:

Once the samskaric pathways have been set, most people just keep running down them, like rats in a maze, reacting with the same old patterns and feelings every time they find themselves in a situation that seems to mirror whatever the original trigger might have been.