Dirty Diana

I'll be the freak you can taunt
And I don't care what you say
I want to go too far

more alcohol insanity. something inside me that breaks out and destroys me.

destroyer of comforting illusions

Only worth in unattainability. Reality alone is reliable, dreams expectations and hopes serve to define a man only as deceptive dreams, abortive hopes, expectations unfulfilled.

we ourselves decide our being. you are free, therefore, choose. there is no reality except in action. man is nothing else but the sum of his action.

deceptive dreams - why do I live inside deceptive dreams, all my life, never back to reality. never see things as they are, but as I wish them to be. fooling myself into believing dream IS reality. and thus getting crushed when waking up from the dream and realizing it was all make-believe. even if I see through this, it seems I don't want to change it. uncapable of bringing myself to face reality. it's out there, I just don't want anything to do with it.

Take my badge, but my heart remains

I wanted love, I needed love
Most of all, most of all..
Someone said "True Love" was dead
but I'm bound to fall
Bound to fall for you
Oh what can I do?

Take my badge, but my heart remains
Loving you, baby child..
Tighten up on your reigns, you're running wild.
Running wild, it's true.

Sick for days, so many ways
I'm aching now, I'm aching now
It's times like these, I need relief.
Please show me how, oh show me how..
To get right ..
Yeah it's all the side

When I was young, and moving fast,
Nothing slowed me down, ooh slowed me down.
Now I let the others pass
I've come around, oh come around.
Cause I found.

Living just to keep going
Going just to be sane.
All the while I know
It's such a shame
I don't need to get steady
I know just what to feel.
Telling me to be ready, my dear

No Light

You are the hole in my head
You are the space in my bed
You are the silence in between
What I thought and what I said

You are the night-time fear
You are the morning when it's clear
When it's over your start

No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent
A revelation in the light of day

You can choose what stays and what fades away
And I'd do anything to make you stay

Tell me what you want me to say
Through the crowded islands
Crying out at me
In your place there were a thousand other faces

I will disappear in plain sight
Heaven help me
I need to make it right
You are the revelation
You are to get it right
And it's a conversation
I just can't have tonight

You want a revelation
Some kind of revolution
You are the revelation

Tell me what you want me to say
But would you leave me,
If I told you what I've done

And would you leave me
If I told you what I've become
'Cause it's so easy,
To sing it to a crowd
But it's so hard, my love
To say it to you, all alone

No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent

A revelation in the light of day,
You can choose what stays and what fades away
And I'd do anything to make you stay

Joe Purdy

Why you always being so mean?
Why you always being so mean?
Cause you'd think that you could see
The pain you bring me now
So why you always being so mean?

And why you always running your mouth?
Why you always running your mouth?
If you'd stopped to find it out
You might understand by now
So why you always running your mouth?

And why you always making me cry?
Why you always making me cry?
You look me in the eye
And tell me all your lies
So why you always making me cry?

Yeah, why you always looking so sweet?
Why you always looking so sweet?
You walk into the room
And it brings me to my knees
Yeah, so why you always looking so sweet?

Yeah, why you always making me stay?
Why you always making me stay?
If I only had a brain
I would leave you right away
Yeah, so why you always making me stay?

Oh, why can't I leave you behind?
Why can't I leave you behind?
Cause things would be just fine
If I could get you off my mind
So why you always leaving me behind?