should have written this earlier. like a beautiful glow, a golden shimmer, heart beats faster, everything feels wonderful. breathing sacred air, like the air got softer, cleaner, more golden. feeling the in between places, the softness. if you get into it, it'll take you away. i don't mix with people simply. im going back to my own little world again. even if i don't want things to go wrong they do. even if i want the best, and want everyone to be happy, it just doesn't happen. we discussed it as my special talent. it really is. like if i was a superhero, my superpower would be to fuck things up. im thinking about next term. i expect it to be hell. ill have to find a hell of a lot of anime. and get a new laptop, pronto. which reminds me that i have to start working on my schoolwork.
and get back to work. do i really wanna meet people today? guess a movie wont hurt.
or some buffy. possibly. want my family to come back home.
whats the soundtrack of your summer?
i think mine is my own thoughts, pouring on and on. a neverending stream. and the music that would be a soundtrack this summer is the music from the festivals. babyshambles, the used, sonic syndicate. flogging molly is coming to malmöfestivalen! im so fucking going. gonna be awesome cuz theyre the best. otherwise im really getting into heavier stuff.
Don't be so obvious.
It's so unattractive, you know.
Don't close your eyes, it will all pass you by.
rephrase the whys and the unknowns, this will not be over tomorrow. don't think its a disease, its a mindstate. reasons for everything?
One day I'll fly away and leave all this to fucking yesterday. od anyone. or something more beautiful. like jumping, soaring?
don't even know which thoughts to fight anymore. doesn't feel good when i eat, but i don't know if i should fight it. or trains. should i fight those thoughts?
the other day i got this urge to bite into sweet skin. i didn't do it.
girls talk shit. (i do care)
