This is to "like somehow you just don't belong, and no one understands you".
That song is welcome to pretty much everyone's life. We feel so lost, misunderstood, lonely and broken that no one else could possibly feel all that.
By thinking like this we close the door on everyone else.
Because, truthfully, we all feel like that at times.
Some more than others, some less.
And we know that, of course we know that. Not stupid, dah.
We know that we're not alone.
So why do we feel like breaking down?
I have no freakin idea. i ask all these questions all the time, and it feels like im running in circles. im looking for nirvana in the buddhist wheel of eight arms. nightmare.
what i did today was looking at pictures. remembering who i am, why i am, what i am and how ive become like this. reliving memories. connecting. remembering all the love ive experienced and how good my life really is, has been and will be. it's something i can recommend to everyone feeling lost and down and misunderstood. look at pictures. loved ones. memories. know what they all meant, what people and places meant to you and how they shaped your life and will continue to shape lives. even if the people and places are gone, you will always have the memories and the love.
it's not the same thing!!
of course it's not the same thing, silly. it's just pictures. but pictures letting you relive a moment and a feeling, that's better than just darkness, isn't it?
thinking that no one understands doesn't help people understand.
people close to you want to understand. don't close the door, open it.
easy to say!!
you're running out of arguments. everything is easier to say than to do (almost i think). that doesn't stop us from saying (or doing) does it?
prove the thoughts you have about yourself wrong. you're wonderful, amazing, capable of more than most people i know. not running from responsibility (like ive done all my life) but dealing with it, the hard way. We're never good enough for ourselves. But sometimes we just need to give ourselves a break. Like a huge summer vacation. We can't live up to all the expectations all the time. That's just human.
And "that's just human" is one of the worst excuses i know, because sometimes i just feel like a fucking alien. But hey, it is true, i am most certain (note: "most") i am a human, and as all of the beings belonging to Homo Sapiens Sapiens (computerage philosophy fuck yeah) i have made a hell lot of mistakes.
Mistakes are A and ZzZ. But necessary.
We can't live after perfection. Perfection is utopia, and everyone knows utopia is really a dystopia and if there really was such a thing as utopia, everyone living there would be fucking unhappy anyway.
And we can't be BFF's with everyone in the whole world at the same time. Take life for what it is. a bunch of fucking randomness, interpreted into patterns by our lost little brains struggling for understanding of Livet, universum och allting.
No one is old for their age i believe. 18 and think i know it all. i've seen life and death and love and hatred, and think im wise. (talking like this i aint) no honestly im awware of all this. there's so much left to come in life, im not really in a position to say anything or give anyone advice. but i wont shut up either (too bad for you people! hah!)
I guess you all tired of listening to all this unintelligent belligerent talk. but if you read this far. good. you're not gonna commit suicide within the next ten minutes. (CALL ME IN TEN!!)
What i wanted to say. im freakin here.
as dysfunctional as i am.
accepting everything (pretty much) (no sadomasochism btw)
i want to stay forever close to you
i hope you dont mind this. this is just me writing to anybody. to myself mostly. but i mean what i say. i want to stay forever close to you.
