Yes. That's exactly what I have to learn. To fall for someone...
I feel so grown up working at an office! It's like... amazing! I love it, even if the work I do is kinda repetitive right now. And I love Magda. She makes every day brighter. Had a movienight tonight, after work. McDonalds, kindereggs, candy, Ben&Jerrys... Then we watched Bolt and Bruno. Bolt is a funny movie. Cute. But Bruno was just sick. We were in such a state of shock we almost had to puke. We went for a walk to calm down. Now in retrospective, it wasn't all that bad. I mean, it was a good movie, in the sense that it can procure really strong reactions, and some parts were hilarious. We had to watch the Hills after just to get other pictures in our heads. Like replace the images of aggressive gay porn with images of Lauren, Heidi and Audrina.
Now I've packed my bags to go out into the woods. It's gonna be nice. Pick mushrooms, autumn walks, hot chocolate, just relaxing. Play cards and other board games, cook amazing dinners on all the mushrooms we're gonna find... And read. I'm not gonna think about the week after that when I have to provjobba, cause that will just make me really nervous. This weekend is in the sign of relaxing. And thinking. And be at peace. It's all sort of coming together now. I hope. Even if I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart... I got a closet filled up to the brim with the ghosts of my past and the skeletons... Now I'm running and screaming...
