3.08.2009

All of days that past us by

From the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
Or
All of days that past us by,
All of the sun is gone...
Away
(-Story of the year)

George Bernard Shaw once said that a life spent making mistakes is not only more honrable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing. He also said that everything happens to everybody sooner or later if there is time enough. As we go through life, we will continue hurting people, and they will continue hurting us. There is no guarantee that it wont happen again and again, there is no promise you can make to make the hurt go away for ever. Hurt is such an unnecessary feeling really. It doesnt make anyone happier, so why feel it? I believe we can't control those feelings sneaking up on us. Feelings are a bitch that way. They always catch you when you expect it the least, catch you with your pants down so to speak. And we just have to deal with it. Deal with the hurt, and with all the mistakes we made. And deal with the fact that it will most probably happen again. Holding my mother as she cries from yet another dramatic break-up with the love of her life, trying my best to find wise plattitudes like "love prevails" to comfort her, this becomes more apparent than ever. We end up hurting the people we love the most. "You love each other more than anything, so why the fuck do you keep doing this?! Can't you just love each other and be happy?!" It's unfortunately and obviously not as simple as that. But working through the issues, getting past the barriers, holding on to each other, being honest, angry and everything we have to be to solve the damn fuck-ups inside our own minds, is so totally worth it in the end. Because it's the greates mistakes that make our life worth living just because they make us so incredibly strong. It's just a matter of having a little faith. Having faith that it will work out, if we just keep talking about it. If we are there for each other. Or as I said to mom "imagine your life as a a tv-series. Like I'm watching One Tree Hill right now, and right now in the episodes I am watching, they are having a really hard time. They're hurting so much and everything is just shit. But. I've seen the following season, and in the following season they've all found their way back to each other, and they're just full of love, and they are so happy! So, imagine you can see the next season of your life, and see how happy you will be there, and have a little faith now that you're hurting so much. Have a little faith that it will be over, and you will be happy again!" So keep making mistakes and keep hurting, because it will make you great, wonderful people. Then there's that other part to it that we just love to be caught with our pants down.