Cleaned out a lot today. CleaningFest08 is on bitches. First papers and folders and stuff. Today wardrobe. And mind. Clothes go to recycling, more space, stuff on floor goes in, old boxes emptied and cleared. Check. Mindclutter and broken debris also sweeped a little. By talking to Mom and Anna. Perspectives. by saying something, you might actually understand what it means. By saying something aloud, you might realize what it is you've been saying all along. Silent thoughts are not always gonna do the trick. And maybe your thoughts are really silly, and by saying them to someone else, you'll find out just how silly they are. Tomorrow desk and bed will get it's share.
Copenhagen today was real fun. As soon as you step out from the underground, feel the breeze and smell the air, you know it's not Sweden anymore. You get the outlandish feeling, adventure and exoticness. It's only half an hour away from home, but it's still outlandish.
On the train ride there we contemplated how wonderful airports are. The sense of expectation in the air, heading to new places, new experiences. The tingling and the nervousness, the happy uncertainty of not knowing what's gonna happen next. I love it, just walking around there, breathing in the excitement. Of course it's all the better if you hold a ticket with a destination in your hand. Mine would say Narita/Tokyo.
Didn't buy the perfume. Sadly enough. Walked in there. They have 5 of them left. Yes, I know, I'm obsessed with scents. But this one is really special, although I'm trying to convince myself it's so special I would have grown tired of it immediately. Its rich, mysterious, spicy smell still lingers sur mes poignets... And I dream...
Akimbo. Fairytale store. Never get tired of walking into that heavenly place of fluffy, happy, pink, lace, angels, glitter, candy, candles, cute, butterflies, plushies, toys, mirrors, crystals... It's like walking into the dream of a princess.
Then of course, the obligatory booze stop. Yepp, check. It's legal so HAH! Bacardi lemon. Which two smart girls found out was very nice to mix with ice tea. And some breezers for a sister in need.
The train ride home was HIGHness. Kindereggs, scary wormy chipsy thingys, chocolate MAELK, ice tea, and more kindereggs. I couldn't put my toys together. Seriously, it was really difficult! But managed finally. Some random stuff and some more random stuff. A shark!
Angel is a big fluffy puppy with bad teeth <3
Mom. Talking. A lot. Serious. finally feel like im a grown-up. I take care of her just as much as she takes care of me.
Sometimes you just need those talks. The close ones, where you help eachother out. In this case, me helping her out. You realize you actually have something good to say, that you've experienced quite a lot and that what you say matters. That you can help and be a support. Just venting out everything you need to talk about, and getting a response. Almost forgotten how wonderful it can feel. Both listening and talking. Making her laugh at her own silliness. Family is always the closest. no matter what happens, they will always be. because they love you for who you are, no matter how badly you screw up. and that is worth everything.
how can it be "cosmic" just touching another person, looking into his eyes? im amazed at that. guess ive never felt what its like. being that in love. seems like a real hard time though. im too comfortable with dreaming. guess i'll always be too comfortable in fantasies. they are just so much less harsh than reality. didnt say better, mind, only "less harsh", cause reality can be pretty darn nifty sometimes. if you make it so. woudlnt that make fantasies boring though? cause they're flawless a.k.a perfect? hm, i think too much. trouble sleeping because of the eternal thinking. will you just shut up for a minute thank you. but the more i tell it to shut up, the louder it gets. and im kinda scared about tomorrow. shallowness is hurtful. goodnight.
